_________.:.Life of a Gothic Gurl.:.________

Friday, August 04, 2006

The dream that i once had, was now dashed.

Now, i'm just like a zombie .

Nothing seems appealing to me, all i could see is just black and white.

Where am i heading to.. don't ask me cause even myself do not have the answer yet.

I knew i have to start over again, finding another path to move on.

But all seems unreal to me, i'm afraid of stepping out the first step.

I kinda lost my confidence i once had.

I kept on running away , afraid to face it.

I really can't see my future.

I really envy my friends at least they themselves know what to do.

How i wish i'm strong to overcome this and not coping myself at home crying.

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Friday, April 14, 2006

Whee... Juz came back from KL..Hmm,, well there actually nothing much to shop

cos some shops

tat i frequently visit eg. Topshop,ZARA actually nt much difference and the price are quite

expensive as compare to Spore. but wat i like is Roxy in KL have a lots of variety as compare to

ours.. their design damn special lo but EXPENSIVE ar.... i dun bear to buy sia...

throughout the whole trip all my stuffs i bought from MAMBO.. cos they are having BIG sale

man.. 70-80% off.. i definitely chiong for there 1 lo... i bought 1 shirt, 1 tees, 2 shorts 2 wallets.

haha... so cheap and worth buying ...

During tis trip , i also went to the Beach club to drink and guess wat i found a favorite drink

again... Strawberry Margita so nice.. i'm in luv with it...Yummy~ cHeerious~

Beach club to me i name it Little Thailand cos everywhere u can see thai girls walking here and

there bitching and filtring with old man wanting to have sex with them... there i also saw a few

trans.. some nt bad looking with BIG boobs which i luvs, some are damn old bloody trans with

big belly wanting ppl to have sex with them.. OMG .. i dunno wat they are thinking man..

overall Beach club still nt bad alot of funnie stuffs...

Oh ya.. i found a place in KL which served the XIAO LONG BAO which is better than crystals Jade le.. Thanks to my cousin Fanny and her bf brought me there to taste the delicious XIAO LONG BAO.. i will miss it de..

well... that all for the trip.. juz shopping and eating and slping... nthing much...

photos will be upload soon until the dick head sent to me...

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Are u ashamed of yourself ?

Yes indeed, for me i'm ashamed of myself.

I'm not always there for my besties not always there for my families.

I just living in the world of my own!

I never tried to show my concern to them...

I never tried to find out what are they doing...

I never tried to stand beside them holding them up...

I never tried to express out how i feel for them...

I never tried to tell them my sorrows...

I never tried to tell them i feel inferior...

I never tried to share my happiness with them...

I never tried to apologize to them face to face of all the stuffs i had done...

I never tried to make the first step to approach them...

I never tried .. i just never tried..

How i wish i'll change myself..

I wished i'm able to walk out of the secret apartment of mine..

How i wished ppl are able to c me ;

where i actually worried for them, I'm happy for them,cared for them, liked being with them, like to chat, like to have fun together, like to make fun of ppl...

To Mummy, Pa, Curry & Karen:

I'm sorry... i onli loves coping myself in the room, i never tried to help out even though ur reali me but all i onli do is juz to avoid u all...

To Feli, Ziyun, Kaini, Xueli,Yingru & Ah Qi:

I'm veri sorry for nt being there for u all.. even though ur dun mind but i mind..Truly veri sorry!!

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Saturday, March 18, 2006