::Angel's Secrets::

2006-08-04T12:00:00.000+08:00

The dream that i once had, was now dashed.

Now, i'm just like a zombie .

Nothing seems appealing to me, all i could see is just black and white.

Where am i heading to.. don't ask me cause even myself do not have the answer yet.

I knew i have to start over again, finding another path to move on.

But all seems unreal to me, i'm afraid of stepping out the first step.

I kinda lost my confidence i once had.

I kept on running away , afraid to face it.

I really can't see my future.

I really envy my friends at least they themselves know what to do.

How i wish i'm strong to overcome this and not coping myself at home crying.

2006-04-14T13:11:00.000+08:00

Whee... Juz came back from KL..Hmm,, well there actually nothing much to shop

cos some shops

tat i frequently visit eg. Topshop,ZARA actually nt much difference and the price are quite

expensive as compare to Spore. but wat i like is Roxy in KL have a lots of variety as compare to

ours.. their design damn special lo but EXPENSIVE ar.... i dun bear to buy sia...

throughout the whole trip all my stuffs i bought from MAMBO.. cos they are having BIG sale

man.. 70-80% off.. i definitely chiong for there 1 lo... i bought 1 shirt, 1 tees, 2 shorts 2 wallets.

haha... so cheap and worth buying ...

During tis trip , i also went to the Beach club to drink and guess wat i found a favorite drink

again... Strawberry Margita so nice.. i'm in luv with it...Yummy~ cHeerious~

Beach club to me i name it Little Thailand cos everywhere u can see thai girls walking here and

there bitching and filtring with old man wanting to have sex with them... there i also saw a few

trans.. some nt bad looking with BIG boobs which i luvs, some are damn old bloody trans with

big belly wanting ppl to have sex with them.. OMG .. i dunno wat they are thinking man..

overall Beach club still nt bad alot of funnie stuffs...

Oh ya.. i found a place in KL which served the XIAO LONG BAO which is better than crystals Jade le.. Thanks to my cousin Fanny and her bf brought me there to taste the delicious XIAO LONG BAO.. i will miss it de..

well... that all for the trip.. juz shopping and eating and slping... nthing much...

photos will be upload soon until the dick head sent to me...

2006-03-22T10:38:00.000+08:00

Are u ashamed of yourself ?

Yes indeed, for me i'm ashamed of myself.

I'm not always there for my besties not always there for my families.

I just living in the world of my own!

I never tried to show my concern to them...

I never tried to find out what are they doing...

I never tried to stand beside them holding them up...

I never tried to express out how i feel for them...

I never tried to tell them my sorrows...

I never tried to tell them i feel inferior...

I never tried to share my happiness with them...

I never tried to apologize to them face to face of all the stuffs i had done...

I never tried to make the first step to approach them...

I never tried .. i just never tried..

How i wish i'll change myself..

I wished i'm able to walk out of the secret apartment of mine..

How i wished ppl are able to c me ;

where i actually worried for them, I'm happy for them,cared for them, liked being with them, like to chat, like to have fun together, like to make fun of ppl...

To Mummy, Pa, Curry & Karen:

I'm sorry... i onli loves coping myself in the room, i never tried to help out even though ur reali me but all i onli do is juz to avoid u all...

To Feli, Ziyun, Kaini, Xueli,Yingru & Ah Qi:

I'm veri sorry for nt being there for u all.. even though ur dun mind but i mind..Truly veri sorry!!

2006-03-18T09:16:00.000+08:00

Argh... i'm going to rot to death le...

I miss all my frenz... argh...

My life is in a mess..

dunno what to do ...

where to go.....

can't really see where am i heading to...

is the the life i'm going to have....

2006-02-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

Have u ever try to stand at my point of view?

The comments that you all made reali hurts me..

u all r no stranger ;u r my family....

don't u all know tat,tats the worst thing that can happen!

FUCK!!

2006-02-04T00:41:00.000+08:00

Life is a balance between holding on and letting go

But my hands are slipping off that bar

To which I desperately cling

Is it my destiny to have a life that sucks?

Every time a new problem comes about

Another brick is added to my feet, pulling me down

Farther and farther

Can I hang on long enough that soon my problems will be so numerous

That I can stand on them

Or will I soon plummet into the dark abyss?

My hands are getting slick with fear

I feel my fingers

One

Start to pop off that cold metal bar

Shortly only my right handed pointer is the only thing that keeps me hanging on

And it��s starting to hurt

But I don��t have the strength to go on

Or the will to intentionally let go

I close my eyes

And continue to hang��

2006-01-28T08:40:00.000+08:00

< ;/param>

2006-01-25T12:29:00.000+08:00

Stripped of my naievety

Stripped of all my pride

Stripped of my self-consciousness -

There are things I'd rather hide

Stripped of all my anger

Stripped of my selfish greed

Stripped of all the pain I bore

These wounds no more will bleed

Stripped of all my problems

Stripped of all my cares

Stripped of all the lies I've told

I'm perfect now, laid bare.

2005-12-27T02:02:00.000+08:00

Transformed

I stand before youStronger than before

The weakling that had loved youIs standing here no more

The love you did not wantIs no longer in it's place

But now is a deep resentmentThat will put them in their place

You ripped my heart away from me

You threw it to the ground

And with my tears and blood in me

A hidden thing I found

I stood up once again I guess

But this time someone new

My heart was gone, out of it's place

And so was my view of you

All you'd done was give me grounds

To stand up once again

Not quite who I was before

But knowing where I'd been

I have no reason to hold back

No reason to keep my mind

Now I'm strong and I am free

And you are in a bind

You CLAIM to be so sorry

You CLAIM to want forgiveness

But the sad truth of it is

I cannot so easily forgive this

Although I must thank you now

You've killed the weaker me

And in his place stands the strong one

That your eyes now see

My tears no longer burden my cheeks

My heart no longer controls my thoughts

I look at it dead on the ground

And grin so maddly as it rotts

I'm someone else, I'm something new

Nothing can stop me as I am

THrough suffering I've been set free

And of your tears I give no damn

Juz across to this poetry, It 's quite well written a, it reali expressed how someone which had been once fallen down,climbed up once again to prove that he/she will be stronger.

This poetry i would like to present to you ( u noe who u are). I wish you will be as strong as the author. I'll be there for you, i dun mind sharing your sorrows but i wan u to know that in Life ones will tend to haf sorrows but the most important thing how u get over it and move on.If that person don't treasure you, it's he/her loss. You still haf other frenz who will be there to support you and treasure you. Like me, I treasure you very much ah~ I reali do hope taht i will get to you the happy side of you soon..

MUACKZ!!

2005-12-07T10:16:00.000+08:00

I'm not feeling good since that night.. This time isit really the ending for both of us. The bond that we used to have. it seems to start disapperaing. Why do i had to repeat the same old mistake just because of 1 wound that lying in my heart. I feel so stupid and lost. I dunno what i can do to join back the bond that once we share. U seems to take to heart of what i had said . U started to change, where i dun wished too.. but i think is too late..

Is that means that i have to continue walkng alone in the road where i had to keep u as memories..

I dun wished to do that..

Dun force me to..

2005-12-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

Last goodbye

It was the day before Christmas, a girl with long black hair and pretty green eyes walked trough the snow. There wasn��t much snow but she loved it already. She walked trough the park, there wasn��t anyone at least she thought there wasn��t anyone. A smile crawled on her face when she reached the top of a hill. She loved that spot and when she stood there she could look over the whole city. A boy with dark brown hair and silver/blue eyes was watching her. He wondered who she was and frowned his eyebrows. ��Why didn��t I see her before?�� He wondered. He looked at her long black hair and somehow he wanted to touch it.

It started to snow and her smile grow bigger, if that was even possible. It made him feel strange, being so close to a girl he didn��t even know and liking her already. Suddenly she looked over her shoulder, right into his eyes and blushed. He stared back and didn��t know what to say or what to do. She stood there quietly while the wind played with her hair and the only thing he could do was staring into her green eyes. Something about her eyes fascinated him and he couldn��t turn his eyes away from hers. She turned her head around, away from him as if she didn��t notice him. He walked her away, ready to grab her arm and make her look at him.

Before he could reach her she walked away, down the hill and back to the city. He stood still on top of the hill and stared at her back. The wind was playing with her hair again and the snow was sticking to her dark blue jacket. She was smiling all the way down, holding her hands together and staring at the snow that fell in front of her. She loved snow but she couldn��t really concentrate on where she was going or what she was doing at the moment. She remembered those silver/blue eyes who were staring into her eyes. She didn��t really saw the boy because he was standing in the shade but she could clearly remember his eyes. Those beautiful eyes, she melted inside and touched her cheek which was burning dark red.

He was still standing on top of that hill, watching her go and somehow he wanted to get her back to him. He wanted her to stay with him although he didn��t even know her name. ��What the hell is wrong with me?�� He thought quiet frustrated. He got annoyed because of his sudden mood switch, most of the time he was calm and he watched everything around him. But now he could only see that girl with her pretty green eyes and that long black hair. He wanted to hold her tight against him and cuddle her. He didn��t even know why he wanted that but for the first time in weeks he felt like being with someone else accept from being on his own all the time. It made him more frustrated and he stared down at the hill. She was already out of his side and he didn��t know where she had gone, the snow erased her footsteps so even if he wanted he couldn��t follow her.

When she finally came home, it became dark and the streetlights switched on. She opened the front door and walked inside. Some noises came out of the living room and then a head came around the corner. ��Leila! Your finally home, where were you?�� The girl asked. Leila smiled softly and looked up into the girl her brown eyes. ��Hello Tanya,�� she whispered. Tanya raised an eyebrow and smiled back. ��Well, where did you go?�� I was walking around, enjoying the snow.�� She said back to her. ��You know I love snow.�� Tanya smiled softly at her and relaxed a bit. ��I know that, I was just worried because it was getting late,�� she said.

He finally went home, it was late already and he walked inside his house. It was quiet in there, he sighed and felt quiet alone. Such a big house and he was all alone in it. He would rather be outside, watching the falling snow and enjoying it. He loved snow but he kept thinking about that girl. ��Who is she?�� He became frustrated again. ��Wish I could see her again�� He said slowly to himself. He walked inside his living room, everything in there was blue, white or silver. His mother did that before she died in an accident. He got a flash back of how it happened and shuddered. He slowly sat down on the sofa and stared out of the window with tears shining in the corners of his eyes.

Leila sat down on a chair and looked up at Tanya. ��I��m sorry. I didn��t want to make you worried. I just forget about the time,�� she said relaxed. ��I won��t tell her about the boy and those eyes�� She thought and melted. Tanya looked at her and wondered how she could forget the time when she was just walking trough the snow. ��You said you wouldn��t stay away for long, you know I��m going away tomorrow.�� I know, I��m sorry.�� Tanya frowned her eyebrows and looked at Leila with a suspicious look in her eyes. ��There��s something your not telling me, isn��t it?�� Leila blinked with her eyes as if Tanya was crazy. ��What are you talking about?�� She said with a annoyed voice. She looked very innocent and twirled a piece of hair around her finger. Tanya nibbled on her bottom lip and turned around. ��Okay, I think I��m just to curious while you didn��t do anything. Let��s go to bed it��s really late already.�� Leila followed her upstairs and they got ready to go to bed.

He frowned softly with his eyebrows and finally realised how late it was. ��I should go to bed or something,�� he mumbled to himself. He got in bed and made himself ready for bed and fell asleep the moment he lay down. He was tired of this whole day although he actually didn��t do much. Leila woke up the next morning and when she wanted to say ��good morning�� to Tanya she was already gone. She frowned and then realised she had slept to long. Tanya was already gone she had to go back home early. She got up, took a shower and then eat some breakfast. ��Maybe I see him again if I go back to the park.�� She thought quietly. He woke up at the moment she thought that, somehow he felt really relaxed and got out of bed. He got dressed and went back to the park. ��Why am I going back, she wouldn��t be here.�� He thought.

She walked the same path trough the park and got to that hill. She was screaming to herself on the inside, just for going back. She stopped on the foot of the hill and stared up at the boy. ��Who are you?�� She whispered. ��I��m Owen,�� he reacted. She flushed dark red, she hadn��t realised she said it out loud and looked down at her hands. He walked down to her and smiled. ��May I ask your name?�� He mumbled softly. ��I��m Leila.�� His smile grow bigger and he stood in front of her. ��You have a sweet name.�� Ehh�� She reacted. ��Don��t be shy, I won��t bite you.�� He said with a soft laugh. She smiled at him and looked into his eyes. ��Big mistake.�� She thought and melted when she got lost into his silver/blue eyes. He didn��t realised she didn��t say anything back and stared into her eyes. He was lost again in those big, innocent, green eyes. She finally turned her eyes away from him, simply because she was blushing fire red and she couldn��t hold on to his eyes.

Although they just met each other the day before, they decided to go out. Just drink something and talk. It was obvious that they felt attracted to one another. When it was time to say goodbye she looked up into his eyes, almost begging for him to stay with her. Somehow she felt scared to be alone, she couldn��t say it but just by looking into his eyes she knew he would stay. He placed an arm around her waist and smiled softly. ��I��ll stay,�� he answered even when she didn��t even asked anything. She smiled happily and together they went to her house. When they got inside he pulled her up into his arms and went upstairs. ��Now what?�� He asked relaxed. ��The bedroom?�� She asked in a whisper.

He didn��t protest or asked what she wanted. He just went into the bedroom and lay her down on the bed. She pulled him next to her and crawled in his arms. He held her close to him, lying there made him feel comfortable. She fell asleep in his arms, he was still awake but he didn��t really mind. He liked this girl, for the first time in his life he wanted to hold a girl and protect her against everything. Protect her against every sad feeling, protect her against every bad thing in this life. She was smiling while she was sleeping and it made him feel quiet happy. He stayed awake the whole night, afraid that all of this was just a dream. Afraid that she would be just a dream, she was so sweet to him and she wasn��t afraid of him either. When she begin to wake up a bit he softly whispered: ��I love you.�� Her eyes became wide but because she was lying with her back against him, he didn��t saw it.

He thought she was still asleep and fell asleep himself. She knew she liked him, but she didn��t know if she loved him back. ��How could he say that after one day?�� She thought while she panicked. She stayed next to him but she could hardly breathe normal. When he woke up the next morning she was standing in front of her window, staring outside and so she didn��t notice him at all. He stood up and stand still behind her. His arms came around her waist, it made her look up at him and she smiled a bit sad. ��What��s wrong?�� He asked her. He looked worried down at her and she frowned. ��You can better go�� She whispered. He let her go and turned around. ��Fine, I��ll go.�� Tears came in her eyes but she didn��t stop him. He walked out of the room and disappeared. She knew she had done something wrong, she wanted him back but she didn��t even know were he lived. She knew that she had been wrong this time, she loved him back.

** One year later **

Leila walked trough the park, it was the first day of Christmas and she enjoyed the snow floating around her. Owen was standing in the shade, he saw her walking and stiffed. He hadn��t thought she would be here. It was a year ago she had send him away and he growled. He had missed her so much, he wanted to hold her again and never let go. But he know he couldn��t, it was to long ago. She had told him everything that day, it was their special day and he wanted it back. She was walking further and hadn��t notice him yet. She was lost in her thoughts, remembering those silver/blue eyes and some lost tears dripped of her cheeks. She had missed him every day and now it was the day she had talked to him for the first and almost the last time. She heard some footsteps coming from behind her and she turned around. ��Owen!�� She said in surprise and a smile crawled on her face. He didn��t smiled at first and looked in her eyes.

��Leila,�� he said slowly. She stiffed when she heard his cold voice and her smile faded. ��I��ve missed you,�� she said in a whisper. He didn��t even blinked and kept looking in her eyes. As if he was searching for something which he couldn��t find. She wanted to turn around and walk away from him. He wasn��t the same boy she had met a year ago and it made her scared. He pulled her into his arms and he looked deep in her eyes. ��I��ve missed you too,�� he finally said. He slowly kissed her on her lips and her eyes closed. ��I love you,�� she said when tears run down her cheek. When she opened her eyes he was gone and she stared at his footsteps which were still standing in the snow. She knew that this was their last goodbye.

2005-11-26T01:48:00.000+08:00

I really wish I had more words; maybe then everything else would seem so bright, the colors would stop mixing, and I could see again. I feel left out, yet im not really left, but taken back repeatedly, every day, every hour, every silent sound I know. Why am I this lonely person in my mind when they are all around me? There must be something wrong, I think, which leads to captivate my leaking shadow, to rot the dwellings of their minds. I feel it swallowing me, every time I open my eyes; I realize just where I am, but why then does it take a second or two to remember, to recapture yesterday's picture?

People think it's "sad" and "shameful", but really, what can they know? Is this person just rebelling, and who is this person anyway? Is that me, or you? I ask too many questions, I know. It seems the spirit has shown itself, on white, blank paper suddenly, and it's not that timid anymore.

Let me sit and draw myself a falling leaf; Yes A leaf that's falling...how? It's easy, but I have to know before I start. It needs to fall together, in phase with everything surrounding me, including maybe even me. I fell, I sank inside the white, but couldn't breathe, and closed my eyes.This is the end, it's when the paint is dry and all the stores are closed, and I am tired, but still alive. Please let me stay a few more minutes, I won't be loud, I'll just blend in; Very soon you won't remember I was here. In fact, I never was.

That's wat i'm feeling now!! I never get the chance of being cloae to people. Am i so diffcult to get along with? kinda wanting to ask the pals around me but i'm afraid of the answers.

2005-11-16T01:02:00.000+08:00

The Biggest event for Harry Potter's Fans..

The movie will be out tomorrow.. i can't wait to watch it...

2005-11-01T11:40:00.000+08:00

A ray of light shone onto me..

Granny finally decide to amputate off her toe. It really must be tough for her to make this decision. Even though amputate her toe is a good decision for her due to her illness but what about her feelings; her inner strength, she must be feeling miserable bah. at such her age to lose her toe.

As Chinese believe, when they died they hope that their body is full state. To granny who is such a tradition woman, what made her to have such a courage to do it. I really admired her... GRANNY.. Jiayou wor... LOVE YOU....

wake up early in the morning... thought of couple of stuffs that had been happening to me recently.

why i always don't treasured or content about what i have now.

I got such a lovely family even though we seldom showed our concern towars each other but all of us knew that no matter what happen we will just be there.

i got such lovely 6 sisters.. even though we seldom met up but deep down i knew they care for me alot.. I really thanks them for that.. i really had a great time with you all when i with you all... I love you all... I missing you all now ... =(

i got such a good buddy but over and over again i made him disappointed. I'm sorry for that.. i don't mean to do all this bad stuffs to you maybe my little devil controlling me bah... you are right; i had a different mind from others but that me.

Love you too wor...

i got such good frenzs in my life no matter in school or whatever.. i will cherish all those memories that we had.. eg. Fishing, visiting to zoo, going out... Thanks for all that...

LOVE you all too...

i must stopped complaining about my life.. I must be greatful to God that he brought all this beautiful people to me... even though he took some of them away but i believed that is kinda of test for me or maybe a punishment to warn me that i really took things from granted.

I must to treasured and loved or also let those beautiful people to love and protect me...

Bird that Brings the Sunrise

He shakes The last drops of dew off of his wings As he prepares for his journeyTo bring the sunrise;But the sky is crying today.

The rain gently massages The abused earth,And the wings become wetterThan they were before,And he wonders if he can still fly.

Is the rain cold?Is it gentle?Can he still bring the SunEven if he is soaking wet?He still has the sky, but��

Raising his smallBlack eyes he realizesWhat it means to bring the SunTo the wandering souls ofThis nearly barren world.

The rain gently massagesThe abused earth,And the wings become wetterAs he pulls the SunAnd sheds light upon us.

2005-10-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

It a sad day for me...

i'm afraid to face death once again..

I can't afford to lose someone close to me again..

if you wan take her away, why not you take me, let me replace her...

make me as your slave, i'm willing to sacrifice for her...

Please just don't take her away...

From that day , you took her away from my life...

You have been ruining my life...

i lost all my smiles all my laughter all my confidence...

i no longer knew who i am...

staring my reflection blankly in front of the mirror trying to believe it a new begining..

but when day end , i hated myself...

why are you putting me to the test, i'm too weak to hold on....

Unforgetful Memories

You held me when I was little,

And tickled my little feet;

You would even hold my hand,

When I needed to cross the street.

Unforgetful memories,Are all I have to show;

A melody of years,Playing softly in the wind,

As I remember all those days again.

Unforgetful memories,When we would run and play;

Unforgetful memories,Of playing "tea time" on my bed;

And all those unforgetful memories,Playing over inside my head.

Now time has passed,But your memories do not faid.

And those unforgetful memories,Take me back to more joyful days.

When you would run and chase me,With the warm sun overhead;

And then later,You would come and tuck me into bed.

Even as the years fly past,And my hair turns from Blonde to Grey;

All those unforgetful memories,Will never fade away.

2005-10-27T07:26:00.000+08:00

浜鸿��寰�楂�澶��锛�瓒��璺��涓��
瓒��虫�句��杩��伙��瓒��蹇�涓��
瓒��绗�寰�寮�蹇�锛�瓒��插��
瓒��冲��帮��瓒��涓�璐ユ��
瓒��浜��锛�瓒��寰�涓��
瓒��璧锋�ユ�ｅ父锛�瓒��
瓒��充��帮��瓒��浼��
瓒��浼ゅ��颁��琛�锛�瓒��娌′��
瓒��琛ㄩ�㈠��寮猴��瓒��蹇��杞�寮�
瓒��涓��ч�存．锛�瓒��蹇�搴��
瓒��涓��ㄤ��锛�瓒��冲��
瓒��寮�浜烘敞��锛�瓒��绌鸿��

濡��浣��充��瑙ｅ��浜虹��蹇��灏卞��椤诲��浣�浼��浜虹��澶�澧�

�� 板�ㄧ��ㄧ�ㄤ��涔�蹇��㈠�瑰ぇ瀹跺��锛�

涓轰��涔��宸辩��缁��浜�璧凤�� 韬�蹇�宸插��濮�绱�浜�锛�

��宠��浜�瑙ｆ��蹇�锛��涓�浠�蹇��

��宠��冲��瀹朵汉 ��寮�涓�浜��ｃ��

��涓��颁��浠�蹇��板��ㄦ�充��浠�涔��

��宠��浜�浠�涔��

��宸辩��寮虹��涓��㈠��剧��澶у�讹��涓��宠�╁ぇ瀹剁��版��寮辩�广��

��涓��诲コ浜哄�с��

璇风�辩��瀹朵汉涓��锛�蹇��浠��扮�卞��ㄦ��璧凤��

2005-10-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

so stupid of me to believe all this...

I must be crazy over this kind of thing....

i'm just an empty shell....

Thai

2005-10-14T10:11:00.000+08:00

wow!!! so long nv update le.. Sorry ar kinda lazy to upload the pics and type all those feeling

out... came back from Bangkok around 2 weeks le..

this trip did really open me up a lot. It made me feels that 2 different character of people, it's kinda hard to maintain a GB relationship; being friends or buddy or sista will be much more happy in life rather tiring clinging onto "LOVE" that making life quite complicated..

but overall this trip was FUN.

i wan to go on another trip... sista lets save up more $$$$...

hmmmm.. Actually i wanna to apologize to you, that i made u quite fuck up during this trip cause of some reasons, i'm so sorry... even though u told me u enjoyed, but to me u seemed that u are not having fun. maybe i'm too sensitive or wat la...hehe..

but cause of you, u really made me see another part of Thai's lifestyle where seldom tourist will look into it.... Thanks for that too... i'm so lucky that i live in SINGAPORE.

hmmmm... Bangkok it quite a good place for girls especially to go for shopping... the clothing as well as the accessories are so cheap and nice but 1 problem is that u need to buy them in bulk in order to get the cost price which kinda stupid if i bought the accessories but if buy tees man.. u can buy until siao ah...

oh ya the Thai gers shows also made an impact to me too.. it's reali sucks like hell.. it's not as interesting as what i imagined the ladies there are not pretty , their boobs are not beautiful, nipples are black, the butts are slagging down.. not chio at all.. thanks ar jon telling me that the gals in the show are veri Chio and young hor and even 1 lady looked like crazy frog lo.. and even the guy in the mating part is in its middle aged lo koaz it reali made me puke to see an old man's DICK. in that show u will see what wonders that a vagina can do, sucking water from a bottle and transfer it to another.. Blowout the candles and also u are able to use it to smoke , u also able to see stings of blades coming out of the vagina which are sharp.. u also can stuffs veri long strings inside it. oh ya man.. i dunno got so many style of having sex wow.. no wonders so many guys loves watching that sick performance.

but i will 1 to watch it again if the guys are handsome and young la, and also the women are chio enough...

if any one interested:

Bo Bae tower gt 1 particular shop who sells nice tees in bulk which is quite cheap and the materials is damn good .. go go go for it.
Chinatown is a good place to shop for accessories as well as cartoons stuffs like Doraemon, Mickey but also in bulk. and also got lots of Birdnests la and Sharkfins...
Chachuchat market opens around 8.00am to 6.00 pm on weekends only actually is a veri good place to shop but too crowded and the tees from there are cheap and veri nice girly stuffs there too...
MBK.. ( my favorite) the prices will be quite ex compare to the previous 3 mention above but it's quite nice to shop...

Siam square also a good place to buy accessories and clothings and also lots of chio bus to watch 1, the restaurant there the ambiance quite gd , Hard Rock is there too..

Central shopping centre also quite gd if u wan to buy bras and branded stuffs.. (unless having sales )

Patpong night market also quite gd to shop... there alot of Fake stuffs.. there also gt bars at the side where u can c plump ladies doing pole dancing swinging their fats to attract customers and the beers there are cheap ( jj sae 1)

World trade centre and another shopping beside forgot the name le not recommended cos too ex le and nothing much to shop.. onli gt adidas shop, Anna sui shop, beach shop, sport shop.. that alls...

Picture time...

Tuk Tuk !!

another kind of tuk tuk ba !!

Chinatown

Siam Square

Pink Taxi

buying mineral water

Halloween night is coming...

witch is here...

staring out

row row row your boat

OMG raining again...

yummy Udon..

nice drinks... i'm loving it... :)

hungry ghost..

traffic is heavy...

view from the hotel room..

bird nest ...

A&W

WOrld trade..

last one

2005-09-27T09:40:00.000+08:00

yeah!! After tml i will be happily having my holiday...

today really have to buck up and memorize tan yy tips..

gtg..

bye bye

2005-09-25T14:08:00.000+08:00

just read Kaini's blog... dunno why i suddenly feel so sad sorry ger i had to admit that i did not really got into much in trying what u are feeling now.. i'm so sorry. all i can wish for is u will be happy dun get bother of that.. u still haf us to love you ok.. u once told me to have courage to face him.. i'm sorry i give up this little chance cos i'm too tired to face all this le.. After all i felt so foolish, so stupid to hold on... i'm letting it to go, you can do it ger.. let's fight it together ok...dun be a love slave be a winner who control love... u can do it..

To Ah qi..

i read your blog, i felt that you are quite lost.. dear dear.. we are always there for you no matter wat... love you always...

feeling very low now..

i finally have the courgae to blunt all those things out... is this wat i wanted, i had no idea myabe the distant btween us is getting far le ba.. i dunno.. i want to remind to all my frenz kindly dun link me and him le ba...it's over.. to tired to hold on, letting go maybe the best way for both of us ba... looking for a new one will be better for me....

tired to write on...

GOODBYE......

2005-09-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! Finally all de ICA module officially down today... Even though ICA module is officially down it also means that exams is coming le.... so sian man.. really have to start mugging le...

went to Chinatown just now to book my air tickets.. quite excited and had fun chatting with the sales person... i will be flying off to Bangkok on the 29 of Sept... Wee... can't wait the times reach but now at the moment must concentrate on my exams first.

Oh by the way i need help from you guys.. can u PLEASE click the link below.. cos i need 10 people to click on it in order to activate my account... It's a webby where u are able to download free movies.. so guys plz do help me this poor little illegal gal here.... Muackz.. Thankz..

��靛奖瑕��锛��璐圭��锛��ㄧ嚎��涔�涓��★��杩��浠ヤ��杞姐��涓��姣�锛��寮��э��缃��锛�http://www.abc173.com/?guraserimu

2005-09-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

nothing much to blog.. Cause my life is boring..

miss all my frenzy... It's seems like getting a distant between them... haiz...

i feel like living in another world of my own.

hate my stupidness of not trying to open out myself.. Sometimes feel so lonely even though i know there are frenz around me who cares about me.. I'm afraid of toking to ppl.. I'm afraid of saying wrong things or even the topic that i started are not interesting. Always sit at the side listening quietly between people conversation... sometimes i do envy my frenz;lifong who really can chat so freely with people around her.. haiz...

I'm such a failure dun seems to close to anyone...

when I'm down all i noe juz swallowed it down,

when i sad i juz put on a happy face,

when i need someone to listen to me but afraid of approaching.

when i'm bored need someone to accompany , i'm also afraid of approaching

Why am i such a coward !!!!

to my frenz... i'm so sorry of wat i had did.. Especially to feli, ziyun, kaini, yingru, ah qi and xueli.. i'm afraid of showing my weakness to you all .. i'm so sorry for not opening out to all of you...

I'm so sorry !!

2005-08-31T20:05:00.000+08:00

Did you let go of my hand ? How come i can't feel much from you...

Are you there when i need you ? Where are you... u don't seems to be around me....

Are you still there to support me ? i had lost all my confidence.. i truly do...

Do you know i almost cry to bed every night?

Do you know how much i trust you?

Do you know i feel lost?

Do you know that i feel so hopeless?

Do you know i starting to give myself to the dark?

Do you know i getting weak?

Do you know?

Feeling very low... Nearly had an accident during driving... i such a lousy person... Luckily instructor was there or else i really don't know what will happen.. Feeling so guilty toward instructor he gt scared.. It's my fault.... maybe i don't have talent in driving..

2005-08-28T08:38:00.000+08:00

Happi Belated birthday to me !!!

It's been such a long time i blog le.. cos this week super busy week for me cos of the submission of assignments and reports and datasheets... it driving me like crazy.. but everything is going to over soon le.. left only my journal, role playing which i have to act with Andy and 2 presentation.... but it's seems like never ending lei... Exams coming soon too... so rushing.. i cun even take a break out from it...

yesterday went shopping...Met miss Jennie and his darling Debra at lucky plaza... Miss Jeannie bought his 1st pair of Papillo slipper.. Welcum to the Papillo club... Jieqi.. Faster let's save up..

feeling kinda down yesterday night... couldn't explain much cos that how i felt...Seems that i need more time bah..

Oh by the way... Thanks everyone for coming to my BBQ party.. Hope your guys enjoy it though it's juz a simple gathering.. and also thanks for the Sakae Sushi buffet too...

i also wan to thanks for all the presents...

DKNY perfume from my darlings - Ziyun, Feli, Ah Chee, Kaini, Ah Ru and Xueli...

Binkinis & underwear from dear dear frenz - Jieqi, Lifong, Jennie,Debra,zhongzhi, James , Situ,Joyce and Jiehao

Ipod mini & a big bottle of cranes from - Junjie

Red wines from - Arthur

Adidas baggie from - Andrew cousin & his darling girlfriend

esprit bag from - Ah Hao cousin & his darling girlfriend

SK diamond necklace from - Irene auntie & Vivien

Gold bracelet from - Tiong Baru uncle and auntie

Citigems diamond necklace and cash - my mummy & daddy

50 cash - Lim kai li..

Ang baos from - uncle and aunties and Ah ma...... ( relatives )

thanks you u all so much... I loves all the presents..

Ps: photos will be upload in the later stage cos too lazy to upload into my com.. sorri

+:: _ FuckING StreSS _ ::+

2005-08-16T01:17:00.000+08:00

I FUCKING STRESS...... FUCKING PISS OFF.... DUN U DARE TRY TO PULL MY TRIGGER.... I PROMISE I WILL BLOW UR FUCKING HEAD OFF..... NOTHING SEEMS RITE TO ME.... I"M FEELING DAMN $%%#^$#@^%..... ARGHHHH!~~~ KILL ME BA..........

+::+ Present +::+

2005-08-14T09:15:00.000+08:00

JunJie Happi 22th Birthday.........

received my advancement birthday present yesterday... i'm really luvs the present alot.. Thank you so much....

din sleep well last nite... things kept on going into my mind.. i feel so stress now... still have to work later... i simply got alot of stuffs to get on.. my assignments, my bbq stuff... Argh

2005-08-09T20:35:00.000+08:00

YES.... I finally trim my ugly hair le...muah hahaha...

+ fireworks +

2005-08-07T09:45:00.000+08:00

went to watch fireworks last nite at marina bay with jenny, Debra, zhongzhi, situ and James as well as jj.. it's was beautiful ar... and quite fun.... next round of fireworks is on mon.. must watch it again... as wat u promise hor.. u better do it hor.. hehe... i was acting like a kid ytd. it been such a long time i reali watch fireworks also quite sometime i play fireworks le..

next Chinese new years i confirm want go in Malaysia and play... i cun wait ani longer..

if ur guys wnna to noe abt my zoo trip u can go under my frenzy Jieqi blog... cos the zoo trip is so fun and reali gt alot of stuffs to comment which i so lazy to do that...

Pictures time...

jen & moi....

ZOOOOOOOO~~~

White Tiger ~~

3 flowers~~

muching time~

:: sian diao ::

2005-08-03T00:07:00.000+08:00

lazy to type.. show ur some pictures bah...

Mummy's mango cake... Yummy~

tis is my OBASAN...

Moi new Bf~~~

Take 1

Take 2~

dan and me ~

:: Happi Birthday cum Night safari ... ::

2005-07-30T12:34:00.000+08:00

*
Mummy Obasan... Happi Birthday!! Hope you will like the present...Luv you... MUCKS.... We will be there for you always... i promised... I sorry for all my bad doings.. i know i did hurt you alot of times but deep down i reali do love you. i onli dun reali knew how to expressed out my loves for you as well for daddy... i reali wish that i'm still a kid.. that i was able to hug u sit on your lap chatting together..... but too bad.. i'm old le and my weight is so heavy le... haha!!

visit night safari last nitez wif my kahkis... quite fun but veri tiring... walk here walk there .. kana mosquito kisses.. but overall ... VERI FUN AR!!! but miss the animal magic show.. but it;s okay cos got to met some veri veri shuai ang mohs.. *drooling* especially the pink polo tees 1..I'm in luv wif him... when can i able to meet him again... I also had to admit tat yesterday was the first time visit out of my 21 yrs life..Yeah.. next week going to the zoo.. finally able to meet up my white tiger as well as visit Andy's homeland" Reptile Garden" so fun cun wait for thurs to come by... heard from peers that Zoo is different from the past le...

I'm so excited now...

Night safari~~ here we come...

James~~ thanx to u i so ugly...

:: sorry ::

2005-07-25T11:44:00.000+08:00

i vent my anger on her.. i noe i shdn't have done that.. it's nt her fault...i'm truly sorry but you all really have switch on my anger mode.. i hate u ppl touching my stuffs throwing my stuffs away... i keep all those things for a reasons. but ur nv truly understand me... i loves keep things that are memorable.. i reali hate it when u guys nv try to seek any permission and simply do it wat ever u wads... every little things that i had reali meant alot to me... i hope you will understand... there are part of my life;my memories..i'm so afraid that one day i will lose all my memory and the worst things is that i do not have anything there for me... i so afraid of that day ... so i beg u all stop throwing my stuffs stop touching my stuffs... i will try to make it as wat u all expected but just DUN TOUCH.....
*

later on will be going to chalet... hope everythings turn on fine and fun.. won't be online until wed... ppl pls take gd care of urself... love ya...

2005-07-23T00:36:00.000+08:00

*
Too LaZY to Blog.....

*
Take care my frenz...
luv u all...
muacksz....
*

:: market"" ::

2005-07-17T15:29:00.000+08:00

*
went to help out in my dad's stall... well quite fun but tired cos i was working part-time yesterdaty.... market is quite an interesting place to explore.. we can see different kinds of people... well today met an weird and unreasonable lady who actually loves to eat pig's nails.. Yucks so disgusting man.... today business quite gd sold all the meat.. hehe.. maybe cos of me ba... wah haha.. then have my lovely breakfast there... Yummy... i simply love it....
*
yeah... still gt another week then holiday le.. muah haha... cun wait for the time to come.. i'm sick of studying le... i need a break... ARgh..
*

2005-07-17T15:28:00.000+08:00

:: me in de market ::

2005-07-17T15:27:00.000+08:00

:: Thomas Lim ..my company ::

2005-07-17T15:26:00.000+08:00

::Ghim Moh Market ~~~ ::

2005-07-17T15:23:00.000+08:00

:: Lelong lelong... Pork for sale ~ ::

:: no title::

2005-07-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

*
yeah... Finally it's weekend le.. This week is a torture man . firstly... de 1st 4 days of the week i was having manrathon quizes follow that have a practise jounal as well as Lee Wanling's assigment to rush thru... Argh.. the time is so packed. today i had my driving lesson which is so sucking.. i forget all the things my instructers taught me for the past few weeks i felt so stupid man... how could i.... and somemore my instructer gave me a nickname.. OMG !! this kind of instructer also got ah...
*
mummy went to malaysia to visit grandma... hmmm... long time nv my grandma le as well as my uncles, aunties and cousins... I miss you all... especially Zhiyong gor gor... i miss you ah... haha... i wan to go for holiday anywhere but not in SINGAPORE......
*
went shopping yesterday bought 1 adidas sling bag.. hehe.. quite cheap cost me 60 bucks.. and the design is so retro... i'm loving it..
*
below are some pics tat i took recently

* Adidias Sling.... retro right....

Adidas Jacket tat JJ bought $139~

Moi watch from ich~ (sorry for the blurness )

Doraemon Guitar~ so cute

Miss Jieqi is going to peep Jenny pee..

Caught in action~~~ Shame Shame gurl~~

:: SICK more SIck ::

2005-07-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

I'm having Diarrhoea right now.... Sucks man.....

::sick::

2005-07-09T09:21:00.000+08:00

Xueli..... HapPi 21th BirthdAy.......

*
i was infected with Stomach Flu dunno which good people so kind of them pass the virus to me... the doctor told me my case is quite serious.. i cun even consume much food cause i will vomit all out.. so terrible.. i hate being sick on important occasion....
*
gtg... moi mum is nagging at me le...
Take care ppl...
*

:: Overspending ::

2005-07-04T08:00:00.000+08:00

*
couldn't get to slp... now it's my turn.. i keep on thinking whether i had overspent on yesterday trip to JB. i suddendly feel a pinch in my heart.. i reali have to kick away my spendthrift habit i cannot continue like this...what for i work so hard for the money and in the end 1 day i finish it all up without saving a tiny amount of money into my pathetic bank account..i really have to start saving money..i dun wad to be broke for the rest of my life.. i can only allow myself to buy thingd that i'm in need of... i have to stop buying anymore tops or skirts and lots more...

I want to save MONEY !!!

:: Swimming ::

2005-07-01T00:04:00.000+08:00

*
it was so fun today.. went to Jurong Swimming Complex with jieqi and lifong.. Actually this was the first time i went to pool with my frenz cause normally i always went wif my cousins.... " Jieqi and Lifong ur muz be honor to see me in my swimming costume lei... Let's go again to relieve our stesses and also watch free movies....

*
after all those fun in the end i still had to rush to work... it was so scarly cause i had to keep look up for that stupid guy.. but i was so sway... argh... he saw me... and kept on looking into the shop... i was so fustrated.... argh.. when can all this stop... he really disturbing all my colleagues... haiz..
*
i simply hate being in loved by ppl tat i dun have chemistry with...

*

:: no title.. ::

2005-06-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

juz reach home from shopping wif my parents... Long time never see them le.. kinda miss them.. went to IMM to stock up all those goodies as well as to check the pricing for the fridge... i wan my mini fridge....

went to catch Initial D on tue.. woO... i simply luvs that movie man.. It's was so funnie and so cool.... especially Edison chen and Shawn Yue they are so cool man.... i can't resist their coolness....

:: sian ::

2005-06-27T00:28:00.000+08:00

feeling veri restless nowsadys.... too lazy to blog and also nothing much to blog too.. cos i had been working on both sat as well as sun... no weird people to mention abt, no handsome guys to look for...

Gd nite ppl....

luvs u lots....

2005-06-21T01:36:00.000+08:00

:: bra woman ::

2005-06-21T01:35:00.000+08:00

:: me me me ::

2005-06-21T01:34:00.000+08:00

::LOTR necklance..::

2005-06-21T01:32:00.001+08:00

:: main course ::

2005-06-21T01:32:00.000+08:00

::wine or water::

2005-06-21T01:31:00.000+08:00

:: dining table ::

:: ARGH... ::

2005-06-21T00:15:00.000+08:00

not in very good mood today... Firstly my driving reali sucks like hell... i have no guts to drive.. i'm juz feel stupid and coward..... Secondly i dreamz of my granny last nite. i reali miss her alot... i want her back to my life....

last friday went to Petals for dinner wif my family... the food there simply nice especially the appetizer and the desert i juz cun stop having more... i did reali learn alot of the western table manners so on from my cousin cos they are pro in western cuisine... but overall i still find chinese cusine de best....

well yesterday went shopping spree... got an eye on 1 skirt and 1 short from topshop.. planning to get either 1 of them on thurs... i'm going broke soon...

:: driving lesson ::

2005-06-13T10:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my first driving lesson... the first moment i drive the feeling is so shiok.. but after that i was nervous cos i dun really knew how to control the whole car.. i kept on drive out of the lane and i was reali scared to handle the sterling wheel all alone by myself... even my instructor could see that.. but overall driving is fun...

after driving lesson.. went to collect my hp... then met up my sis at bugis for cosmestic shopping.. well... i bought two lip gloss from red earth.. 3 fac1al mask and a facial scrub from lee wah... so cheap and smile so nice.. i simply luv it... i'm getting vain .....

:: Slut ::

2005-06-10T23:25:00.000+08:00

i know u will be reading this... Stop making my life miserable... please for godness sake tell your Bloody "Ex-wife" to stop all the Fucking stuffs and kindly explain to her that u and i are juz frenz... it's reali hurt when a stranger juz call to ur phone and the veri 1st word was "u bitchy slut stop pestering my husband" u noe urself.. we onli msg to each other we did even have the chance to meet up.... Pls dun bother me animore... i'm going breakdown soon...

i juz feel that i'm loser to everything... my life.. my relationship wif peers.. my love...

Regina George

Which Mean Girl are you?
brought to you by

:: moodly ::

2005-06-10T00:23:00.000+08:00

feeling low right now...

nothings seems to brighten me up even though i was having fun wif frenz... i juz dun feel happy or wat...

feeling veri terrible....

i'm a loner....

::Steamboat::

2005-06-09T14:25:00.000+08:00

feeling restless dunno wat to do... all i'm clear of is that later there will be steamboast dinner at James's hse that all...

wat can i say more since u had made ur choice...

:: wat is Trust ::

2005-06-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

wat is trust to u...

u betray the trust that u given me....

anything that is within my control, i'll be most willing to help u out, believe in u that u will keep ur promise but u broke it... which is the most dishearting.. i reali dun wish to think negative where u r trying to avoid me , giving excuses (where i hope is true)... all i ask for is to regain the trust u betray me.. let me noe u have ur reasons for doing it..... tat's is all i could ask from you....

Pls dun let me lose faith in u dear...

staring of the week... quite relaxing as for in studies but quite tense up in peer's relation all due to the FYP thing...

i admit i'm selfish trying to make the best choice of wat is best for me...

am i getting worst? but that's me.... cos i dun care how ppl think of me... i juz trying to do my best in everything... i dun wad to disappoint my parents' hope as well as my dreamz..

have to start reali very hard in this sem, it is an impt sem for me... i cun afford to lose out...

hope u all ppl will support me thru out....

+:: Sorry ::+

2005-06-05T00:56:00.000+08:00

confused coming thru me...

its seems that FYP makes ppl suffer... feel like crying... ii feel that i'm partially of ur gulity... i do feel it to... dun reali noe how to face u and her.... suddendly i feel i'm heartless...

all of us are no in the gd mood recently....

where are you... my soul.. my only one who are able to direct me which route i should go...

:: sick ::

2005-06-01T13:01:00.000+08:00

Sick sick sick... feeling so unwell now.. unable to find ppl to replace me for work... dunno how am i going to survive for the 6 hours....

getting to sian of myself.. dun ask me why.... i feel like i been bothering ppl....

:: monday Blues ::

2005-05-30T09:36:00.000+08:00

so fast today start sch le...

for the past few weeks working like animal at last end the sufferings.. haven reali have time to post up something special for my colleagues... ( gimme sometimes ok...)

on the last day of attachment...

my bossie.. Lay Tin treat us to Ting Tai Feng for dinner where we reali quite a lot of food man.. all have to thanks ren jie for that... haha... he reali noe how to take chance...

then after that they suggested moving on to our necxt eating place.. Haagen das for our dessert.. Yummy... i ordered sorbet.. my favourites... hehe...

after that went for Mascadar.. it was so funnie... hehe... but i had to admit that i did fell asleep at some part... hehe....

well sat... went shopping wif jj and vincent... bought 3 tees... quite disppointed wif my shopping trip cos i cun find any bag... haiz..

planning to go in next week again to buy the tee.. that i miss so much... i shd have bought it...

time for bath....

2005-05-27T01:10:00.000+08:00

mOi LUVS.... Chawanmushi....

2005-05-27T01:09:00.001+08:00

sushi sushi...

2005-05-27T01:09:00.000+08:00

anione wan some HOTATE.. ???

2005-05-27T01:08:00.001+08:00

miso soup... Yummmy....

2005-05-27T01:08:00.000+08:00

Raven c gals....

:: COMbination of 3 daes ::

2005-05-27T00:43:00.000+08:00

long time no c....how's life for ur ppl..

it's been a busy week...lots of testings to do la... have to think wat to buy for Lay Tin and working part- time la etc...

Yeah... finally today will be the last dae of ITP... I had waited so long...can get rid of the busy daes again.... but will kinda miss the RTP ppl ba.... who i will miss ??haha... RTP still not bad company but onli i think they need communication training... in tis ITP.. encounters alot which made me look through tat in the real world u will have to start lokking after urself cos u will never know who will be stabbed u behind ur back... i perfer the 1st ITP ba where things are simple and fun... not so stressful and peacful among ppl...but who cares cos I"M leaving .... None of my BUsiness le...

haha....

ops... time to slp le...

buai buai

have a happy weekends....

:: tired ::

2005-05-25T00:07:00.000+08:00

too tired to blog..... nitez ppl...

:: New Skins ::

2005-05-24T01:00:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. another new skin.. I kinda like this skin....spend alot a long time to do all those editting la.. finding my cute kao-anis la.. smilies la... but it's fun doing all those... Yeah!!! finally fins a new hobby le.... muz gonna learn more from other...

Ops.... haven type out my weekly assigment... shit man... but veri tired le... wan oink oink le.. wed then hand in ba...

Nitex nitez....

2005-05-23T01:11:00.000+08:00

:: Combination ::

2005-05-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

:: another pair::

2005-05-23T01:05:00.000+08:00

:: Adidas Sling ::

2005-05-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

:: Guess Belt ::

:: Love ::

2005-05-20T00:47:00.000+08:00

垄戮 Love 垄戮

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if his or her happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love.

Love doesn't hurt all the time, though the hurting is still there to test you and to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you.

That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves.

On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejections; to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk risking nothing! To reach for

2005-05-19T00:07:00.001+08:00

char siew bao that raven bought for me...

2005-05-19T00:07:00.000+08:00

moi fav.. hawaillam Porkchop.... Yummy

2005-05-19T00:05:00.000+08:00

moi ...

2005-05-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

feli....

2005-05-19T00:02:00.001+08:00

moi & turtle kuan

2005-05-19T00:02:00.000+08:00

moi & ziyun

:: Mon.. Tue... ::

2005-05-18T12:36:00.000+08:00

I CUN STAND MICHEAL SOH... U 2 headed Snake....

:: Monday ::

met up wif feli and ziyun at PS.. it's seems that long time nv met le.. we walked around PS for awhile then we wnet to cafe cartel for moi dinner... Yummys!! i simply luvs their foodie... ecspecially Hawillian Porkchops...we chatted and laughed... that kind of feeling is reali veri good... it's been so long we sat down and chit chat... i wad more of that man... hehe.... after that we called arthur aka turtle kuan over to meet us cos i remember he saeing that he now studying in Stansfield college whch it's quite near to PS.. we met up chit chat laughed ... after that turtle kuan sent us home...

i simply missed the old times..

:: Tuesday ::

recieved my time table... quite relaxing only friday i have 8 am lesson.. but sat have to go back to sch... sian diao~ cos of the final yr project thing... haiz tok abt final yr project.. i reali dunnno wat to do man... hehe....

yeah... going back sch soon... I miss all my poly pals...Jieqi la, lifong la, Jamesy la, Zhongzhi la, Jenny la... blah blah blah....

Lets have fun for the new coming term....

my card reader spoil le... unable to upload my pics.... :(

:: tired ::

2005-05-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

getting tired of my routine... Almost working for 7 daes.. but bo pian cos i reali a big spender.. i juz simply luvs spending... argh...

1st of all... Congratulate James and Jieqi got their driving license..so happy and envy... dunno when will be my turn.... i reali gt no extra time to learn... haiz ~ have to wait until new sem then starting learning ba....

Friday the thirteen is reali a veri unlucky day... our injection molding machine had some problems... then also the 1st time me in RTP saw derrick lost his temper and he looked veri pissed off and quiet the whole afternoon...

today late for work... work until siao... dun reali like working wif Qiu Shi cos she reali like to boast how fortunate she is la... how rich she is la.. how well informed she is la...how gd her hokkien is la... more worst now my boss keep speaking dialect to us and some more my hokkien is damn lousy.. reali muz buck up learning how to speak hokkien man....i sometimes reali dun understand wat my boss saeing man.... Kill me ba....

nothing much happened to me.. Only quite busy learning how to make nice nice my blog... learn how to put in pics into my blog... Vincent teach me le... but i still dun reali noe how to use photobucket....

thanx Vincent...

brain not functioning well le.. tml still have to working...

OH by the way...

Freddick... Happi Birthday... luvs u...

Photobucket

2005-05-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

This is a test post from Photobucket.com

2005-05-12T02:12:00.000+08:00

me & Raven....

2005-05-12T02:11:00.000+08:00

me & Raven....

:: boring day ::

2005-05-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

new skin juz changed it yesterday nite... Haven reali do much touch up yet..

today quite slack at work... Not much testing compared to yesterday's testing... Help Michael do some paper work and so on...

yesterday was such a peaceful day for me cos Michael soh is on MC... yes.. the nagger is not in the lab to nagged... i reali hate ppl nagging at me... Especially guys... yucks...

i starting to feel that Michael is trying to command ppl or his colleagues rather then telling ppl or should i sae is inform... haiz... i sometimes think that he think too highly of himself though he is veri "OLD bird" in lab..

dun sae abt him le... juz reach home from supper at Gelyang... Yummy! Yummy! i simply luvs the foodie there so delicious especially the Froggie porridge... i juz cun stop eating.. till now still craving man... the beancurd there also not bad....

Geylang I Luvs U....

tml Jieqi and james will be having their TP.. Wish both of them best of Luck...

Ganbatte... :)

Nitez ppl....

2005-05-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

now is my butt's turn...

2005-05-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

scratching my Little "sister""

:: funni & weird woman ::

2005-05-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

sian ah... tml Mon le.. have to work again... still have about 15 more daes to go... when will that dae come.. i getting sick of attachment le... argh...

juz came back from work... met a weird plump lady.. she reali made the other customer and us giggled until stomach pain man... tat lady kept on laughing on her own even though she noes that there were ppl around her... she juz kept on laughing and laughing...she also kept on took the vcd from the shelves and KISS it.. OMG.. it was so Grossed man... i couldn't believe it and somemore i have to clean all the kisses she leave behind on the vcds... Yucks! more worst of all was that she kept on scratching her beloved private Parts and her big fat butts.. she finish scratching her beloved little "sister" then she scratch her butts... one and another Non-Stop... dunno what happened sia... so itchy until like tat... she reali totally ignored us... she forgot that there were males customers there also....

OMG....

she stayed in our shop around for 2 hrs then she went off.... then my boss told us that the 1st dae of the shop opening... this lady had been here le... doing the same old stuffs... no wonder my boss was no surprise of all her doings..

hope that i will not meet her again... i dunno whether i still can contol my laughter the next time i meet her....

i manage to take down 2 of her back views... pls enjoy... though cun c the whole process...

shit man.. haf to start writing on my weekly assigment le...

have a nice week

2005-05-07T11:42:00.000+08:00

me me me....

2005-05-07T11:39:00.001+08:00

so comfortable (party world sofa ) like princess

2005-05-07T11:39:00.000+08:00

party world tv

2005-05-07T11:37:00.000+08:00

feli & ziyun :)

:: thurs & friday ::

2005-05-07T11:31:00.000+08:00

i reali can sleep... yesterday reach home straight away went to bed and sleep until this morning... i reali veri tired both physical and internal....

yesterday i was busy until siao ah... i handled the whole lab on my own while Dan do the moulding... i'm going crazy soon... still gt 3 more weeks to go...

starting cun stand of Micheal nagging...kept on saeing how he is important in this lab... sae without him QA cun do anything much... OMG.. everyday will repeat this to me onli.. y dun he sae it to Dan they all...
" Micheal Soh... u tell me also no use... i cun do anything... "

i was so piss with him.. he accused me of the mistakes that i had not done... i noe my work ok... if i'm in doubts i will reconfirm with u all... PLS stop saeing u are important... without u i can do all the lab work on my own.. isit it.. i had already prove to u le...

thurs went singing session wif my 2 darlings... Ziyun and Feli... sad.. yingru they all cun made it... we went to Party Wrold causeway pt.. OMG it was much more cheaper than K box... each person onli $14.70 onli so cheap argh.... and some more new songs updated faster than K box... so ppl let go Party world instead man... it's was so fun... let's have another gathering next time...

also on the way home met szewei in the LRT... but we nv tok cos she was wif her bf... we onli waved goodbye to each other.... :)

sian... my appointment with Bioskin was postponed to next week...

i had already postponed 3 times le... i'm juz so lazy....

2005-05-04T20:50:00.000+08:00

poor leg...

2005-05-04T20:49:00.000+08:00

my legs reali hurts.... :(

:: damn sway ah... ::

2005-05-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

recently reali veri sway...

my performance not veri gd cos i'm still affected by the sadness...my supervisor was quite unhappy wif me.. but i dun care... all i noe i try my best can le..

yesterday.. While cutting the fruit.. the knife dropped and cut my skin out... i was crying like hell.. so damn pain man... i nearly drop dead... Now i cun walk properly man.. even raven are grossed abt my injuries...

today... lab com broke down.. so happy... no testing to do.. haha... but supervisor's face turn black man for whole day cos alot of problems cocked up.. she so fuck up... then keep on checking on me cos the testing i got does not meet the specs.. but the true is that even my colleagues got the same results as me.. haiz.. dunno wat she is thinking... maybe she too stress up ba.. or maybe she having PMS now... muah haha..

tml results out le... dunno how i fare quite afraid... i'm veri worried abt my manual drawing cos i'm reali sucks at that i even fail my quiz for that.. OMG....

take care ppl... especially u...

:: too sad to move on ::

2005-05-02T16:40:00.000+08:00

it is true when we gain something we will tend to lose another thing.. i gain back my trust to my parents but i lost him... my buddy... nothing seems right...

i broke the promise i made to everyone that i will be happy.... i'm so sorry..

nothing seems right... Crying to bed every night from that night onwards.. Hugging the tigger soaking wif tears..

listening to songs i cry...

all i wad is our friendship back.. but i guess is too late...

u seems to move on without me...

::I'm so sorri i dun mean it ::

2005-05-01T09:18:00.000+08:00

i ask a terrible question... i noe i shouldn't have ask that...

i regretted... i reali do... i'm so stupid.. i'm so sorry...

it's not u should disappear.. is me ba...

i juz wanna u be my buddy forever when i'm down u will be there for me.. but i noe now it's veri difficult le...

juz wanna wish u haf a happier life without me ba...

deep down in my heart u will truly be my bestie buddy...

thanx for all the memories u gif me....

i always veri happy when i with u... :)

Take care wor... :)

:: ASEANPLAS::

2005-04-30T12:27:00.000+08:00

wee... yesterday finish work early.. cos going to the Singapore ASEANPLAS exhibition at Spore Expo wif moi colleagues.. yesterday is the last day luckily i mange to visit... it is so classy and huge.. Almost all the plastic companies from all over the world exhibit their own products example their injection molding machine, their plastics compounds and many more which regard to plastics.. although i new to this line not sure of he function of the injection moulding stuffs. but i did reali exposed to lots of things... reali a good experience and also alots of ang mohs and shuai ge to see.. hehe.. :)

after that went to the books sale in expo hall 6... kaoz.. the books are so damn cheap... Harry potter which cost me $40 plus but at the books sale it onli cost $7 onli.. OMG it was reali a veri big difference man.. i planning to wait for book sale then i buy for the Harry Potter book 6.. bought couple of books.. so cheap... cun buy much cos veri heavy man...

i wad to go again...

more cheap stuffs for me...

JJ i'm sorri... u are also my another best buddy.. u truly are... the msg u send me gif me tat kind of disappointment feeling.. but i swear u r the 1st person who will noe my problems...

Gaming time...

buai buai..

have a great long weekends...

::changing my life ::

2005-04-29T12:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday was another crying nite for me...

i chat wif my bestie friend i cry to him i complain to him abt my sadness abt my problems.. all the things juz came out when i met him... he is the only 1 tat can clam me down who dote me who gifs me advises and i noe tat he will there for me looking me out supporting me... i reali luvs him alot he is my truly pillar where i noe i can go for....

i truly thanks him for all tat... i will change for a better person i promise.. i will try to be independent... i will also try to bulid a closer my relation wif my parents..i will be strong and continue to move on without forgetting my grandma, my weakest, my shame and all those...

thanxs for trusting me and never give up on me...

xie xie ni...

wat i learnt from him is tat there is no perfect person in the world.. everyone have its own flaws so there's no need to be shameful of ownself flaws too..

to all the people who noes me...

u may dislike me.. i dun care, cos i noe i cun be able to make everyone to like me cos tat is me.. i will not try to please anyone juz in order to let them like me... i juz want to be ownself.. the happy plump gal i used to be....

if u accept me... i reali appreciate that as i noe u all trust me... and thanx for all that

i juz to be a normal cheerful gal where i treat ppl wif my true heart. i dun care whether how u treat me back cos i noe that dun matter how much u gif out u may be able to get back the same treatment back from others... when u all need my help i will of course willing to help.. when u use finish my usefulness it's ok too i will always be here when u still need me...

all i noe as long i wen xin wu kui i will be much more happier than wat i'm now.. cos i noe i nv treat ppl badly and also wif no motive...

i also will overcome my sensitive part...

though is veri difficult i will not give up on myself animore.. if i fail i will try to stand up and try again.. i believe i will be xin fu 1... cos i noe my family as well as my frenzs who will be willing to pull me up...

to all my frenz ... i will be happier i believe... i wish u all happiness.. face ur problems dun be afraid.. as that how life is.. we learnt and grow from mistake... Life is full of ups and downs, we are born here in earth to face of this... dun be afraid of failure as there will be people who are knowns as familiy and frenz for u all...

Luvs u all....

i luv u ah ma...

i luv u mummy and daddy...

i luv my sisters

i will luv try to luv myself more...

dun give up on me...

:: RTP of CEO :: Part 2 ::

2005-04-26T00:13:00.000+08:00

finally.. i 'm alone in my quiet room writing blogger... juz reach home.. went supper drink wif zhong zhi and jamesy...

let's continue on wat i have stop in my pervious entries.. well today i was introduce to the CEO of RTP.. OMG the feeling was so shock man cos onli i and Dan was honour to intro to him as well as shake his golden hand.. muah haha.. i was so nervous lei... wonder who will be my CEO when i started working...

today is a veri slacking day for me cos not much checking to do due to the orders... kelvin told me i was lucky to cum at this mth where less orders and the processing from the production side is slow so i can slack so much.. haha.. and also the QA colleagues are quite busy as RTP which had juz started colour lab so some of my collegues transfer there for training... therefore Qa lab at the moment is veri isolated and quiet... i hate that kind of feelings...

after work.. went shopping buy some stuffs... hehe...quite happy wif the stuffs i buy.. hehe..

wow.. so late le.. muz faster go oink oink le... tml still have to work..

nitez..